Can You See The Music? Feel it on the Air Tonight

The following is the music of spiderwebs some of the most transcendent, and spooky music EVER. Listen to it in a dark echoey room for full effect. https://www.sciencealert.com/scientists-translated-spiderweb-into-music-and-it-sounds-utterly-stunning It reminds me of how when I was a little girl, I would be trying to fall asleep listening to the ticking clock getting louder and louder, then I would start to really notice the buzz that is silence and that buzz would become deafening and if I focused on it I realized that I could tune it like a radio and pick up different conversations. And if I closed my eyes I could see a glowing blue spiderweb with what looked like dew drops or electricity on it and each dewdrop was a person.(this was way before X MEN) Usually I didn't know who they were and their internal dialogue was sssoo BORING often it was women clothes shopping berating themselves about how they wouldn't be able to get different clothes. But every once in a while I'd get the really fascinating thoughts, though usually these people would seem to notice my energy on some level and shift away making me lose the station. Though none ever attempted any conversation with me, I was like a fly on the wall (or web?) I talked to other kids and they said that they had similar experiences but that they stopped using it because they felt like they were doing something bad eavesdropping. I said "well if I have no idea who or where they are and they have no idea that I can hear what does it matter?" I grew out of doing it much once I started reading myself to sleep. Once as an adult I tried to do it again and I went into a sleep paralysis then dream where a man said "How did you slip byk us for so long? You have to have a permit and be vetted to access the web" and I said " To access my own natural abilities how can you regulate that?" Now often the buzz gets deafening but the dial is broken, and only certain things get through. Prophetic Dreams using spider symbolism have been prominent in my life, they usually represent neutral characters being either good or bad depending on the context. They usually represent a spirit writing out a storyline, weaving a web. If we go by the adage "The enemy of my enemy is my friend" then if a certain place has "Weaving Spiders Come Not Here" is determined bad, then such spiders might be good. But I have had dreams where the spiders lay traps or bite either good or bad people, thus context, and they have their own agendas that don't always line up with ours. So it got me wondering about just who were these weaving spiders that they are referring to? Could it be these? https://kotaku.com/the-people-trying-to-uncover-a-games-real-life-secret-s-1727023156 https://www.escapistmagazine.com/unearthing-a-real-secret-society-and-the-associated-conspiracies-with-it/ In my dreams the spiders always represent storylines, storytellers, planning, plotting, or scheming. There webs often represent choices, crossroads or connections. Sometimes they've represented keeping bad caught in the web away from good such as plants being saved from grasshoppers. I figured that since this seems only natural. Often my natural dream logic I find has actually been around for a long time. So looking into it I found this: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anansi Which sychnchronistically links this: https://houseofanansi.com/products/the-last-wave A characteristic of spiderwebs is that the more you try to get away from them the more entangled you become. Lately I've been waking up with simple words or phrases written across my mind, one phrase a couple weeks back was "remember the blue turtles" I tried asking for more info as alas my dream was lost and I didn't remember the blue turtles from it, but nothing came. When I saw this when I was looking up Anansi I remembered to remember. https://mocomi.com/indian-folk-tales-anansi-and-the-turtle/ I did have a dream a few nights ago of a dead turtle, but it wasn't blue. On a whim, I typed "remember the blue turtles" in to YouTube and this came up: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLvsYXqtYjMYeqmT5s5ajL8DL_YWZsEKuJ I grew up without TV and limited music so I never heard or saw this album though I knew of Sting and the one I heard recently wasn't linked back to blue turtles or it would have set off alarm bells then. This weekend my younger son kept saying that he expected to see a turtle soon with spring coming and this time he wanted to keep one for longer, as I usually only let him have one for a short time and make him release it with many tears and blessings. We write things on the shell in hopes of seeing him again. https://worldbirds.com/turtle-symbolism/ Back to spiders, so in my dreams, the different colors of the spiders also seems to have significance. Usually they are much larger than in reality and are black with bright pink, green, yellow, purple, or blue markings and later when I analyze it the colors seem significant. https://www.uniguide.com/spider-symbolism-meaning-spirit-animal/

In the past few years though, I've noticed that dream symbolism is not just useful for dreams. I've found important crossovers in reading omens in everyday life as seers throughout history, including Jesus has done. I've found that if you look at the patterns of everyday natural occurrences and the actions of animals as Native Americans do with dream logic and symbolism the entire world becomes a magical interlocking web. https://youtu.be/QLYdoN6pEHg But outside of online, I haven't had any encounters with spiders recently, must be the cold weather. But I HAVE with birds and bats. Particularly an iridescent pigeon, https://www.reference.com/pets-animals/symbolic-meaning-pigeons-3d8a47d79cc46406 though I know they're common on the East Coast, they're around here. So much that I hadn't seen one in so long that I can remember in 15 years and I couldn't think of what it was. Interestingly, it had a rolled white piece of paper stuck to it's leg making it walk funny I tried to help it and it wouldn't let me get that close, though it never fully flew off. Afterward, I realized it was a pigeon when I looked it up and it dawned on me too late about the paper, stupid. BUT, I said outside of online, I haven't had encounters with spiders. I find it extremely synchronous that this news article: Randomly came up on my phone the day that I met a new girl at work. When we got to talking and took off our masks we realized that we had been childhood neighbors and hadn't seen each other in 20+ years probably. But what makes it sychronistic is that in her grandmother's yard every year during that time was a huge Joro Spider (more closely resembled a Joro with it's silver and red [though my memory might be off] and not other yellow or golden orb weavers as I've had those on my porch, both I've watched very closely. I find spiders extremely fascinating). The strangest spider dream that I ever had was as a teenager, I dreamed that I went to put on a taboggan/beanie hat and realized that it was filled with spiders and centipedes! I screamed and threw it. Well in real life I screamed also and sat straight up in bed, my mom came running in to my room. I told her about my dream. She said "This hat?" And picked it up, one that we both had NEVER seen before but WAS the one from my dream, somehow my dream had crossed over... Once as a child I had a really high fever that made me develop synesthesia for a day. It was so beautiful I could SEE music in the air different notes on the organ shimmered across the air in different colors. Knowing that my brain has the ability to see sounds, just doesn't allow me to access it has always made me wonder if it's an ability that I could work to regain, without the whole frying my brain in the process ;) https://www.webmd.com/brain/what-is-synesthesia#:~:text=Synesthesia%20is%20a%20fancy%20name,%22synesthesia%22%20has%20Greek%20roots. Synesthesia can also be a crossover between other senses and sometimes when I get a seizure aura I get EXTREMELY intense smells that no one else can smell. It's also made me wonder if it might be signs of crossovers with the spirit world as the smells are either really good or really bad. Some of these have been chocolate chip cookies, roses, cinnamon rolls, death, blood, and (sulfur, fire, death, and vomit, combined that was the worst and NO ONE else smelled ANYTHING AT ALL I had to leave the room [and I've got an iron stomach] Considering that there was an unconscious patient in the room, I wonder if there was a connection with his spirit https://www.huffpost.com/entry/a-neuroscientists-guide-to-developing-synesthesia_n_55e4b004e4b0aec9f35429c9 So it's interesting that the way they describe how synesthesia develops after damage in an area of the brain it's built back better reinforced with new pathways just like a spider does after impacts to it's web. https://www.quora.com/Do-spiders-rebuild-their-webs-in-someone-breaks-it This is something that I've been wondering about for a while as to whether Covid affects the external sensory neurons or those in the brain. From reading this my guess is external. Though since my synesthesia was brought on by a fever, I'm surprised that there's not more reports of it being brought on by Covid though apparently covid doesn't stop synesthesia. https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/m2z6ot/people_with_synesthesia_who_contracted_covid_and/ On the strange questionable mind control science/tech front we have these: https://neurosciencenews.com/imagination-brain-wave-20212/ https://www.livescience.com/brain-computer-interface-als-communicate https://www.cnet.com/google-amp/news/magnetic-tentacle-robot-could-slink-around-inside-patients-lungs/ https://www.popsci.com/science/time-crystal-uses/ And my heart goes out out to them: https://www.newsbreakapp.com/n/0emzcLfd?share_id=eyJ1c2VyaWQiOjE2ODQ3NTc2MiwiZG9jX2lkIjoiMGVtemNMZmQiLCJ0aW1lc3RhbXAiOjE2NDgwMzgxNzkzOTh9&s=a7&pd=0BOuF09m&hl=en_US And them https://www.cnn.com/2022/03/16/asia/japan-earthquake-fukushima-intl/index.html A week after the eleven year anniversary of the Fukushima event, right before I was having premonitions about earthquakes and radiation. ELEVEN years ago when the first one happened, I woke up from a deep sleep saying "Turn on the news! Something terrible just happened!" Today, I couldn't remember my dream, so I tried to go back to sleep and didn't get fully asleep when I heard an unintelligible word screamed at me (in my dream) so loud that it made my whole body jolt.

I was trying to think of something to end this post with. I was down on myself on the lack of melody and imagery in my writing. Often I separate out the poetic and racey writing to be put in a place for only me to admire, yet being too shy to ever let anyone see it. I sometimes go through and take out anything too emotional in my writing thinking that this will help keep the hell hounds at bay. Those ravenous egregores eager to destroy, that tell me what I have to say, or how I say it isn't good enough to be presented. So I should delete it fast lest it be judged and found wanting. Though the other day I woke up from an unremembered dream with "I APPROVE" flashed across my mind. I often turn to either factual or the poetry of others. It was in this turmoil that I opened this, https://lithub.com/i-wish-you-a-sexy-dangerous-jazz-shaped-immortality-diane-seusss-advice-for-life-as-a-writer/ and I'm glad that I did because it fleshes out how I feel lately without me having to say it. Addendum 04/18/2023 I saw the last name of the girl I mentioned in this and was thinking about her, then saw a spider much earlier today. Then I was looking for a different post I made and opened this because I couldn't remember what it was about. Lmao, the irony of my last paragraph up there isn't lost on me btw. And rereading this it all sounds so immature that I wanted to redo it but I didn't want to lose the essence of it all adding up. AND What have I been saying about Oklahoma? https://www.nbcdfw.com/news/local/oklahoma-sheriff-says-recording-of-officials-discussing-killing-reporters-hanging-black-people-was-illegal/3239259/ then there's this: https://www.nme.com/news/music/heres-a-lost-oasis-album-created-by-ai-3432125