April is For Fools and Bubblegum Bitches

https://youtu.be/_AtSYcGTo5c This will all tie together with the fox of nine tails but it might have to be in multiple posts. So I wasn't in the mood to do any pranks on April Fool's Day. But today I feel like making a fool of myself all over again. Today I'm going in to take an actual court ordered psych evaluation for almost a thousand dollars. So I'm putting this up for you all to read my 'crazy' moment. Though if you're just in bed messing with a phone half asleep automatic writing, is that crazy? See the following comments: https://mcmmadnessnews.blogspot.com/2021/02/the-jonestown-loop.html?m=0#comment-form Now though, I'm going to show you the REALLY crazy part. So let's start with this gibberish: "That will circle the CA Cynthia connection, interesting. It's the shadow line... There's still going to be another dream line in there look for a red truck in the mountains of TN I've already "been there" through my son's dream, so this is a mirror? Line? No shapeshifter? Becky...Mark this is the next node, links EVERY THING And mirror line to find still. Did you get to come with me on that? Or was that all shadow work?" MONTHS LATER, after writing that comment, I reconnected with an old aquaintance from high school. in November he was in contact with a Cynthia, that if I remember right had a red truck and lived in AR but also had some link with TN(at the time I remember starting to put AR then erasing it and putting TN) she supposedly grew up in the same town of 500 people as I did yet I somehow never met her. She got sick with COVID and was on a ventilator and I was praying for her, though I didn't know her, my friend that was telling me was an atheist. She got off the ventilator and I gave my friend an herbal elixir for lung renewal to send to her. I also bought one for myself. The other day, anytime that I would look at anything that a different friend of mine would write, I would get an energy of not being able to breathe (not choking just breath catching) though I myself could breathe fine. Then I randomly found my herbal lung renew. My imaginary friend when I was little was named Becky, (though I would just make up stories about her and I knew I was doing it my siblings all had their imaginary friends and we'd make the storyline intertwine we'd also write stories with other characters. One was a five chapter children's book of a family of eagles and each one of us were a character) then my sister and I had an actual friend named Bekah. Well one night as a teenager I did cough syrup with her and my sister and friends. We did what in retrospect was really stupid stuff. My sister had delved into Wicca and was an Atheist (still is) I was a devout naive Christian and felt that was the only power. I thought the wiccan stuff childish yet relatively harmless. So before the cough syrup kicked in strong, Bekah asked me to help play an April Fool's joke on my sister of making a show of that we had 'converted' and we set about lighting candles in a pentagram. When my sister came in she completely flipped out blowing out the candles saying "You don't know what you're messing with, you don't know what I've seen!" She would never elaborate, but she left early because of it. Then as it kicked in things got WEIRD we did light as a feather stiff as a board. We thought we were dancing with ghosts, there was one named Mark that the other girls could see but I couldn't see any of them. I was dancing with this "Mark" I couldn't see or hear him (i thought the other girls were making it all up, though strangely I could FEEL hands in mine and every once in a while a brush against me. One of the girls said "He wants to marry you" [later I married a man named Mark and Bekah married a man named Marc. I left Mark on 06/06/06 after he tried to kill me pregnant, under railroad tracks. weird I just realized that it's the aniversary of when I got a divorce today. I wasn't talking to her when she left Marc but later she said that he tried to kill her and she had a hallucination that I astrally projected to her and gave her comfort and strength to get away] back to the party, as the night went on one girl said that she felt like she was "a big blue turtle" because she was wearing a blue poofy coat and saying "I'm going back into my shell now." she got the bright idea to try to call her ex boyfriend that had died in a car wreck (she didn't tell us until later that he had been abusive and had choked her. [honestly almost every woman I've ever known has had an abusive ex] well when she dialed the number we were all listening in on the other phone line and we all heard him say "hello, [then her name] then she started choking and turning purple, the girls that could 'see' said 'he's choking her!' what ensued was 5 girls fighting off what to me was nothing but energy that I could feel. To some of them it was a ghost they could see. A shared hallucination? Two of the girls (sisters) that could see and hear them I later found out had been diagnosed with borderline schizophrenia [before the dxm trip] one of the two that could hear them but not see them delevoped schizophrenia later. I got into fistfights with the sisters and they tried to burn down my house. I was told one time that in the 70's the CIA was doing experiments with a drug that would allow you to connect to the spirit realm but the danger was that if you were schizophrenic and didn't know it, it could send you into a trip that you never come back from. Could DXM in cough syrup be that drug? In a previous post, I mentioned about having two patients that had never came back from anesthesia seeming to be in the same dimension though different from ours. And Jerry Marzinsky's view on schizophrenia. Swedenborg is another good delve. https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Emanuel_Swedenborg I'm not advocating for the use (or overuse especially) of drugs, far from it I enjoy being sober and without being sober you don't have a baseline for the effects. Often the times that I have taken drugs or drank to much I've endangered my body or morals. Though I don't have a problem with them being used as a medicine. BUT I have a huge problem with our current medicine/medical system. Natives and shamans and witch doctors all recognized the the duality of medicine i.e. "bad medicine" but often this has been discounted in modern times because it rests largely on the spiritual aspects. But how said if a state of humanity that we live in that we profess spirituality and faith in the supernatural, yet we trust our very lives and it mental as physical self into a system that denies it. I'm going to have to continue this on the next post as I need some sleep. but I think that there's more than enough reading and watching material here. if not check out the FILM ARCHIVES on YouTube. That'll get ya. their latest: https://youtu.be/M-xPeA4JaHY This merci next comment is going to tie directly to the fox in a spiritual sychronistic way. but it involves a long story that I'll have to continue on another post. 10-10-20 above Q 10-11-20 4846 SO NY claimed to have PASSED on the PAYOFF so why are we still looping? It went to the SON ties to YEMEN. https://news.un.org/en/story/2021/10/1102682 https://www.sec.gov/Archives/edgar/data/1820566/000107680920000331/xslF345X03/tvacu20201216.xml https://finance.yahoo.com/news/paul-glazer-glazer-capital-return-191719626.html You know how sometimes words just get stuck in your head over and over until they almost lose meaning well arbitrage had been for a while. I have to find it again later I'm tired, but I had a rabbit hole started on looking in to stock sales on vaccines. It's 4648 https://qposts.online/page/3 On 11/21/21 I noticed two different people with a tattoo on their arm (man and a woman seemingly unrelated at different times) that was the symbol on the right of that conversation on 10-11-20 (that starts with RR) one had an arrow though it. Then on 11/22/21 I saw someone who had it on his hand. And on 11/22/21 i was spiritually nudged to go back and look at this comment and try to figure out what it was.Those details are integral to the link with foxes in my story later