WHICH CROSS WILL YOU DIE ON?

When I was growing up, we used to always say that my youngest brother talked too much, we kept telling him to shut up so then he would go talk to himself. Hahaha That's how I feel, I'm pitiful. I feel like everyone got sick of me so now I'm still rambling to myself. Hi I'm nobody who are you? Is it so bad that I want human contact but I don't want to be hypnotized, or gaslighted or not able to identify if I'm speaking to more than one person. Anyway I'm rambling to who I hope will read this instead of just me. Improvement, or wistful thinking? Besides who wants to talk to people that treat other people in certain ways and lash out when someone asks for answers. Or when someone asks too forcefully for answers because they were drinking alone for St. Paddy's day?;) But it comes down to DO YOU KNOW WHAT YOU ARE DOING? This link that I got from BB is really hard to read through. the though of it kept making me turn away but we need to look at it and make the conscious choice to boycott it. While I'm at it. I'd like to talk to BB because I would like to know some of the strange things with the erased comms. Seems even having removed myself from talking there, weirdness continues... Because when Words are was comming, see how weird and crazy this sounds when you aren't reading the other parts of it? So I probably won't leave this up. So when he was talking about his dream, I was eating steak (as far as I know it was steak) and feeding it to my children. I was laughing. Then I had a thought cross my mind of someone seeing me eating it but thought that it was human meat. I've worked in surgery long enough that I know the smell of burning human flesh It has a very distinctive smell. If I had smelled that I would not have eaten. I have thrown out meat that didn't smell right. But what is strange is that someone said to me "you're curses will come back to haunt you" But I've called on God to judge not I. Funny though he inserted himself into every part of my life and when I retreated was watching my house and it was him that I was thinking that I felt was watching me dig into that steak and him thinking that it was human so I laughed and dug in more. Hypnosis can cover many different senses. You can will yourself to break the hypnosis. But smells fly under the radar, one of the last vestiges, then covid comes and people lose their sense of smell, which is linked to memory and the difference between dreaming and wake. The body smells, hears, and feels to sense danger and wake up. If we can go into different "past lives" while we are under hypnosis, then find out evidence that those people actually existed. Then tie in the OA and Rudolph Steiner's Organic Portals, the Mandela Effect and Monarch and you start to get a picture. Why did they need covid? Mass experimentation on a spiritual, and physical level. my missing supernatural cat just came back, but has a collar on now and is hissing at everyone. The whole set up to walk the web/crosses/ cactus spines comes down to an ancient spiritual teaching of Identifying where loyalty lies. Which cross will you die on? The cross of Love? (Jack and Jill, black widow etc. ) Of Peace?( don't rock the boat, no waves) Of Truth? But then there's dream, mirror, and shadow lines. I only get bits and pieces but enough to try to warn or save people then I die figuratively hopefully on each cross where I morally draw my lines in the sand. But it always comes down to a truth. It doesn't matter WHEN you make the agreement to sit and talk because it's outside of spacetime it just matters that you did. It might not be this incarnation, but it might still end up being this timeline, so which vessel. https://youtu.be/ZG_k5CSYKhg